Worst Day

Just cause I'm away for a long time doesn't mean life is good. Read the title. Not emo enough to waste too much time here so nothing much here.

Grr...

Fucking damn it! Humanities failed, cross country missed, precious sleep gone, all for a freaking humiliating last place? HOW THE HELL IS THAT POSSIBLE? I shall fail everything, skip school events and even not sleep for an epic comeback! Watch me... I don't die so easily...

Even if I have to screw the Part Alphas to the best standard, I WILL. I have to... Company is going through a difficult stage now, we, Part Deltas 2011 will change it to its former glory... trying our best for we are BARRACUDAS!

IDK

Problems, problems... Not a big deal anymore. Still come as normal, even more maybe, so why do I not care? I don't understand anymore. I don't even understand what it is that I don't understand. I just know that because I don't understand it, life will be a bitch. Did realise a few things more, but they just bring in more complication. Don't even know exactly what I'm posting now. ARGH! FML cannot describe me anymore...

Delay

Now exam period, got kinda screwed already. Gonna write everything that happened this week in 1 post after exams. Till then...

Same routine... slack, sleep, panic

Don't know why. Can't seem to break out of that cycle. Procrastination is a real bitch. Tomorrow is Physics and E-Maths CA1. Never study AT ALL. Haha, today, 2 hours online, 2 hours DoW, loving those Assault Space Marines, and the rest is PT! Pushed myself today, doing 30 pushups very slowly, 120 counts of jumping jack (more or less, lost count half way). Sweat so much! Yea! CNY is also quite a bitch, put on 2.5kg :( But that is considered quite good as compared to my previous years. Will lose it again anyway. So now it seems fun but trust me, tomorrow I panic. Like today, so nervous for SS that I sweat more without brace compared to with brace.

Joyride? NOT!

Gosh. Worst ever. Worst day of 2010 so far IS MY BIRTHDAY. WTF. HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE? Well here it goes. Last night. Do work till 1am. After school today, supposed to go SS lecture, but because of class duties and training, I did not. Not bad enough? Well there's more. Because of all that, got headache. Finally free up time to study, notes gone. All this killed the will I had to study. Still idling. Good thing is that I haven't touched DoW for 2 days. Bad news is, I haven't really touched anything these 2 days.

This might sound impossible from me but yes, it really is from me. What I feel is that trainings these few days... are too slack. Seriously. Takes out a lot of fun from it. I would love this last year but now, I missed those Part A trainings. Shall not spend too much time here, going to try to study.

IMT eh, can't seem to get it right.

So today had IMT. Last time, I got 7/20, failed. I could pass, but failed. Now, I got 14/24, passed. I could get marksman, but passed. Doesn't seem to go right for me. AND THE BEST. Survival training form. Handed in with 1 blank. MY NAME! Went back after IMT to find Sir Teng. Found that he had already written for me. Sibei paiseh leh. Later still got HCL tuition. Fuck it. Damn boring, damn expensive, and quite ineffective. Go there waste 2 hours waste money. Still got homework. Sad.